It's almost like walking into someone's house with an undisciplined dog. They are in your face and you will like them. It can cause a feeling like you are being glamoured, like they want something, or you feel like a wall goes up instinctively as if they are forcing an impression on you. Kinda like a car salesman, but they're selling themselves. There ARE kind, happy people you meet that are interested in you, but this feels different, because they are making themselves the main focus.
2. Obsessive phone callers.
This is why I hate talking on the phone unless necessary. When I tried to leave my ex-husband, he literally called me every 15 minutes. Every single problem person would call for something that could be handled in one sentence in an email, and consume your time talking about themselves. Someone calls you on the phone, it interrupts life, while messages wait till you're ready to respond. It's a way of demanding attention, and these obsessive callers are always miffed when people don't answer. One commented that they could see people commenting on Facebook and how dare they not respond. When I put my foot down with one in chat who was telling me my own mind, and I told her she was wrong, she called for 2 hours lamenting how mean I was for that and how horrible. I never got a word in edgewise, so I put the phone down and walked away... she never stopped talking. The thing with phones is that you have no record of what was said unless recording it, which most people don't, so they can say whatever they like off record and there's no proof. The same people will display a completely different personality in text for this very reason. They use excuses like "you can't understand the tone", etc... which is not something I have really seen to be the case, except by people who read things into text that isn't there.
3. Controls the conversation.
Even when the conversation is about someone else, they tend to make it somehow about themselves. When angered, it's hard to get a word in edgewise. They tend to be controlling in general, and by controlling the conversation it can never go where they don't want it. When I would meet my ex-husband for lunch, he would talk about himself, usually while he was eating all my french fries and exclaiming how bad they are, and the moment I started to speak, he would decide it was time to go.
4. Is a snob.
"This is the way it's done", "You don't understand because this is the way it works", or "I know what I'm talking about (and you don't)". What they like is what's right, and what others like isn't. Everyone does this to a certain extent. We all have our preferences. But they will speak like their preference and agenda is the only way to go and look down on others for not going along with it... even if they have very good reasons. Because that's the principle of it, an excuse to look down on others.
5. They are extremely sensitive to feelings, unless they're yours.
My ex-husband would claim to be a feminist and criticize the husband of one woman who was obviously controlled by her husband, and yet was the same to me. But if I dared to fight back, I was mean and horrible. With all these similar people, they did not seem to have any guilt about hurting my feelings, but if I stepped a toe out of line in any way that displeased them in the least, there was drama to pay. While I was expected to tolerate unreasonable behavior, they were allowed to do whatever. Any feigned interest in my feelings was used to spin it to make them look caring in the midst of them railing against being called out. One used other people's circumstances to garner sympathy and attention for herself by displaying how much she "cared". When at the heart of it, she cared about what she got out of it.
6. They hate to be ignored and have to be the center of attention.
I was watching Riverdance with my ex and said something about how I liked the dancing and wished I could take it. "I can do that" he proclaimed like a 5 year old and proceeded to get up and dance like an idiot who didn't know what he was doing, because he didn't. It was a moment of "hey look at me." Another was visibly put out when someone gave me a sincere compliment even though she complimented me, but it was insincere flattery and she wanted the attention. One threw such a fit when I got hit on more than her that she sold her Renfest costume, because she was obviously prettier and smarter than me and was pissed when reality didn't support her assertions. Which leads us to...
7. They are jealous.
My ex-husband was so jealous that he hated people who had more than him. He didn't want me even being friends with other guys and tormented me if I was. Another was terribly jealous of another woman out of fear that she might be prettier than her, because that's how she manipulated people into giving her what she wanted. This jealousy usually manifested in severe criticism of the other person but not for actual wrongs, hunting for reasons to dislike someone and then trying to diminish them to make themselves look better.
8. Making themselves seem much bigger and more important than they actually are.
I'll be the first one to tell you that I'm not that important. It rather worries me when people compliment me, because of the insincere flattery and the setting on a pedestal to tear me down. These people do not have that problem and are all too eager to tell you how big and bad they are, even if when it's time to put their money where their mouth is, and they can't. One seemed far more successful because her gentleman caller had given her lots of equipment. The guys tended to do martial arts moves to seem more knowledgeable or intimidating than they were. One told me how smart she was and was mad that in this house with Trenton, she was far from the top of the list. She was mad that I beat her constantly at board games. Another girl told me she was so much better than me as an artist and fencer, meanwhile I beat her in tournaments and was offered art deals when she wasn't. It didn't mean she was bad, but she just was not as good as she touted. I perceived us to be on the same level, but she could not have that.
9. Professing to be deep, but being shallow.
For all I've been told by these people how spiritual or what not they were... it was hard to ascertain a spirituality that was more than them getting what they want... They seemed very focused on the physical and being perceived as physically attractive. Now I confess, I was there too. I pretty much had affirmed to me in my youth, by my misogynistic upbringing, that it was the only thing that made me worth anything to men. And I darn near killed myself trying to be perfect. These people however already felt they were perfect and entitled to admiration, and it was other people's bodies that had to live up to what they wanted, not their own. This was marked by comments on other people's bodies like "she shouldn't be wearing that", "eating all that mayo is why your kid is fat", and other comments that degraded people based on their bodies. Or they projected their own shallowness onto others. When I left one boyfriend because he was a lazy butt who would not get a job and wanted to live off me and my parents, in his shallow brain (that only looked at me like a pretty prize), it was because he wasn't as thin or built as Trenton. When he showed up all buff at my booth like I was going to ditch Trenton and go back to him, I lit into him because he had documents from my company that I needed and he would not give back. Ultimately I had to threaten him with legal action to get him to comply because my needs were not important and he disregarded what I had to say. It took him off guard that looks wasn't what I was interested in at all. I noticed and it made me madder that he projected his own shallowness onto me. We had broken up before and my best friend Richard, when he first met me, had been asked to help us get back together at a gaming group by my ex-boyfriend. When Richard met me, he realized this was not the dim bimbo that had been described. Something Richard could see that I was not on first meeting, but my ex-boyfriend could not see after years.
10. They make you wait.
All of this combined makes people who are self centered. They often did other worse things that they have in common, but I wanted to focus on things that were common interactions. Not everyone gets to the intimate level with these people to get into the really abusive natures. But these are the things that an acquaintance might pick up on interacting with them, before getting involved and getting hurt. Again, one of these things by itself is not so bad, but if it sounds like a checklist for someone, then you might want to keep your eyes open and your boundaries firm.
Edit:
Just so you know that I'm not blowing smoke. I do attract narcissists, but extreme egotism is also central to psychopaths as well (usually diagnosed Antisocial - the lack of guilt being the main tell for them ). I left out the lying and such for antisocial personality disorder, because they didn't all fit it, even if many did. Some just lied to themselves a lot. But these were common behaviors across all the abusers I've had. At least one definitely had severe Narcissistic Personality Disorder, one was a true hard core psychopath (the ex-husband who kidnapped and raped me), and a few were diagnosed with Dissociative, which I question as that often takes several years to diagnose, usually committed in a mental facility. One of them I believe because he did check out often, even if he had some narcissistic traits. But one is incredibly manipulative and fit borderline/antisocial far more, probably manipulating her therapist like everyone else for something more dramatic. The rest also fit in the dramatic personality disorder category on some level. Regardless there were some things that fit most of them and seemed to be universal tells that something is off that stretched across the board.
Cluster B (dramatic, emotional or erratic disorders)
Antisocial personality disorder: a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others, lack of empathy, bloated self-image, manipulative and impulsive behavior.
Borderline personality disorder: pervasive pattern of instability in relationships, self-image, identity, behavior and affects often leading to self-harm and impulsivity.
Histrionic personality disorder: pervasive pattern of attention-seeking behavior and excessive emotions.
Narcissistic personality disorder: a pervasive pattern of grandiosity, need for admiration, and a lack of empathy.
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